5 years ago

Five years ago today i was snuggled up in bed on the labor and delivery ward at MTMC with an iv and a bedside commode, being induced, watching Fargo, and awaiting the birth of my first child.....
Sweet boy, love of my life, greatest thing i have ever done, I love you a million trillion, more than life itself.....



Here's to another great 5 years

Mt St Helens Coen

So, when i asked Coen what he wanted to be for halloween, he said volcano......So i made it happen

Movin out

So much has been going on lately around here, with my health and back and pneumonia and the whole mess with the swine flu. I havent had a whole lot of time to deal with a very large change that has been going on in my life.
While we were in Florida, mema had a "stroke" or what the docs thought was one and went into the hospital and later rehab. Everyone decided she could no longer care for herself on her own, so she decided to move into the Stones River Manor. We all got together the other night to pack her up and clean out the apartememnt. I realized, coen would no longer be going over there, which he has done every wednesday since he was born, and never would mema fix me a lunch or ask me to sit a spell....And it makes me extremely sad.... I know she is making friends and getting taken care of, but it is sad, and a little big for me to wrap my head around.

And it was difficult that i couldnt help my mom anymore than i could, being as sick as i was.....

Here piggy piggy

Ok, so last Sunday i was admitted to the hospital, and spent 3 days there with Pneumonia and suspected swine flu..Woohoo. Just let me tell you it sucks...I am a week out, tomorrow and i am still just barely making it. I went to Walmart last night and managed to walk to the mailbox today, and let me tell you, these are no small feats.

I dont think i really realized how sick i was. It's bad when you call the docs office to make a follow up appt and the nurse actually says, "wow you were a really sick girl." I have a hard time not asking for help and being really independant, so it has been really really difficult to just stand back and let the house go, and the laundry go, and the dishes pile up, and just expect denton to pick up most of the work. He keeps saying, in sickness and in health, and you would do it for me, but i still feel bad. Thank god Coen had plans in McMinnville this weekend, it has given me a chance to really rest.

Now i just gotta finish his costume, get ready for Halloween and plan the week....Yah

Pimp my wagon

Okay i had 9 months worth of stuff for Lil H, so the usual gift basket wouldnt do....so i got a wagon and TT helped me paint it, and we aunts had a blingin out the wagon party

She's crafty

So here are some pics of the stuff i did for Lil h...all the emroidery is hand done, and the quilt is hand quilted...snatch

Fashion diva

letting him pick out his own clothes is getting, rather interesting

Sweet boy

Coen has been soooo sweet the past few days, so far i am liking 5

Oh my aching back

Ok, so i have decided this will be the first, and last post i will do concerning my back (or will try to do.)

Anyway, somewhere in the middle/end of July i woke up one day in excrutiating pain and i couldnt get out of bed. I went to my PCP and he diagnosed muscle strain, sent me home with muscle relaxers and pain pills. I healed up after 2 weeks of meds and rest. No one knows if this was triggered by the Physical Therapy i was receiving for my feet or not.

I woke up again around the 24th of August in severe pain once again and couldnt get out of bed. Thursday night I ended up in the er and recieved muscle relaxers and pain pills and sent home. Saturday night i couldnt stand it anymore, nothring was helping. I wasnt sleeping and was in one constant spasm. So we headed back to the er. The xray was clear and after 16 mg of Morphine, and a little stronger pain med i went home. The following Tuesday i went to see a new doc, Dr Newton. He basically told me to suck it up, refused to do and MRI and sent me home, telling me to come back in 2 weeks. I went back the next Friday to get a refill on my meds and he told me to take Tylenol.

So this went on for 3 weeks. The cocktail of pain meds and muscle relaxers, accupuncture, and not even being able to get out of bed to make my son breakfast. So, Coen went to McMInville one weekend and i woke up completely covered in hives. My hands looked like sausages and were completely swollen so bad i couldnt write. Tuesday i had an appointment with a Chiropractor and and appt at the Neck and Back pain center. Both docs susspected a disc injury and Dr Moran's PA sent me for a MRI. The same test Dr Newton had refused a month before.

They discovered i was allergic to the Percocet and started me on a new med, the physical therapy finally started and the chiropractor trips seemed to help. The Monday after my birthday i went in for the results of my MRI. The PA, gave me an exam and kept asking if i had leg and hip pain. He told me i had Degenerative Disc Disease, involving 2 discs on the right and 1 on the left. He told me he believed i was in alot of pain, and probably would always be in pain. He told me that my discs involved really wouldnt let me have any kind of surgery, and basically i would have to live with this the rest of my life. He said nurses have the worst backs...

So here i am. I missed the entire month of September, because i was in pain. I am in pain, varying degrees, every day. I am trying to comes to terms with this, yes i know it could be worse, but for right now, i pretty much sucks for me. I dont know what i can or cant physically do. I dont know if i wll be able to nurse the way i want for the rest of my career. I dont know if i will be able to hoop. Everything is up in the air...I had steroid injections in my spine, my next step and so far cant tell a difference. We will see